Blues!

I leaned forward, trying to take a closer look at the hazy figure in front of me...there is something there; My brain (which is half sleepy) just spurts out - what is it? a wrinkle? a worry line? My eyes, still blinded by the light, are struggling to resolve the image - blink!

A brush in hand, I stare into the mirror, my eyes still trying to focus in the glow of the bulb ... sending cryptic signals to my brain about the shadowy figure in front of them; My brain - yes, its still dreaming - happily resting against the comfort of my skull.

No wonder, it took me 2 mins to drag myself from the bed to the washroom!

As I mechanically move my hand to and fro...brushing my teeth, the eyes look up at the hazy relfection in front of them, they are still sleepy and just want to go shut and drift away in to fairyland! ... fairyland ... ahaaa! what a temptation ... and my mind begins to wander! HEY! KNOCK KNOCK!! STOPPPP!... all of a sudden my brain wriggles itself up and is taking control! The bubble is burst and my mind has to stop its flow of thoughts...scrreeeeeaaaccchhhh! POOF!!!!
"U silly mind...Stop it - You are not suppossed to be doing these things now!! Fairlyland, my foot!!! It's a Monday Morning!!!! It's time to SULK!"

Well, there you go ... I am wake to my senses, brushing stopped and still staring at my reflection but with wide open eyes; and yes, that defintiely is a worry line on my forehead :(

Monday Morning blues - aaahhhh!! How I despise those mornings. Every action on a Monday morning tends to be so laborius and there just does not seem to be any energy flowing in the veins. I usually drag myself to office. But there is one thing I always enjoy on a Monday Morning at office - the look on everyone's face! Let me tell you, its immensely pleasurizing to look at people's faces on a monday morning - the look says it all. Can you imagine how you would react if you woke up in the middle of Sahara with just 'a bottle of water' or you jumped of a 'plane in mid flight' and forgot the chute! Well, you dont have to go far to see such expressions, just make sure you drag yourself to work and look up at people's faces on a monday morning. You will definitely see some priceless expressions. It reassures me that I am not the lone lunatic on this planet.

But every now and then, there comes someone and says "Hello! Good Morning" with a broad smile and all of a sudden my brain has to furiously broadcast signals and my entire body has to react to camouflage my internal feelings and successfully return the greeting - "err... Good Morning!". But, internally it's helter skelter inside my body...what a crazy nut (read - sane person). How can someone be so vibrant and cheerul on a Monday Morning! Unless, unless ofcourse, he is in fairlyland :) yes, yes with a few fairies; maybe more than a few fairies...ahem! (There goes my mind again!). Getting back to reality...I still ponder, how is it possible? Why am I not so thrilled about it being a Monday. I don't feel the same on a Tuesday, Wednesday...! What if it is a Monday? Infact my brain starts painting a gloomy picture from Sunday afternoon! Spoilsport!!!

Wanting to get to the bottom of this... I had a private discussion with my brain (read - self introspection). Let me tell you a bit about this guy - he has been with me from the time I can think of (except for the time when I fell in love and got married!!) and has been pretty efficient throughout. After all the analysis, we came to the conclusion that this whole Sunday evening-monday morning blues is nothing but the laziness of the mind in switiching gears! The mind is in a state of inertia and just lazy to switch back to the working mode, it is this friction that causes the blues! (sounds familier??? - yes, it is...Newtons first law..."Every particle continues to be in a state of ...blah blah! Now we know whom to blame for the gloomy mondays;) Also, I can hear my Physics prof breathe a sigh of releif - I can remember something of his blabbering!)

Well, all this is fine, but the big question still is, why does the mind feel the need to resist the change? I guess over a period of time, the monotony of the working week takes its toll on the mind and so the weekend is where the mind can relax and not worry about meeting deadlines. But still there are unanswered questions like "Why does not the same theory work for transition from Friday to Saturday?? (Friday evening blues!! - that's never gonna happen)". The only answer to that probably is to look at it the other way round...What if we had 2 working days and 5 day weekends? Would I still wake up to a gloomy Monday morning? Well, I think so! That's a definite possibility!

Now, how to overcome this??? After much deliberation, I have decided that the only way to embrace Mondays is to give the mind what it requires. Newton comes up with the answer again!! (yes, it is the second part of Newtons first law - "....blah blah...unless acted upon by an external force") in short, a kick on the backside to the mind .i.e give the mind something new/nice to think about. Maybe a new challenge, maybe pursue an old passion, devote time for a hobby etc. This will break the monotony of the working week and will give the mind something fresh and nice to work on!

It works!!! At least I have realized that this is a good way to motivate myself to follow other goals/passions other than the ones at work and it is definitely a better way to start the week. Infact, it is a good feeling to wake up everyday knowing that you have multiple things to look forward to! :) It does get the mind going!!

Now you know why I started to write again!

I hope u r not reading this half-baked post of mine on a Monday morning...atleast, I do not want to contribute towards your blues!..haha!

Stopping the nonsense now ... will be back with more soon!